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       “I’m starting to believe that he hates me now. I haven’t been around often enough       it’s like we’re growing apart. I’m afraid this is the end for us.”

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      “Don’t tempt me.” An innuendo that could easily become a reality with their allotted time. After all, time was on their side with free reign. That could always come later when the feelings were rising and both entities drenched in that euphoria that was addicting. It’s almost strange how they got to this moment ; all it took was a simple KISS to stretch out the mutuality between them and make it CONCRETE. Now, it was indestructible. A calloused hand rested on top of Sami’s, the pad of his fingers brushing along the skin he had grown so accustomed to…skin that left a SWEET TASTE in his buds.

      A shift of his head, Finn made direct contact with Sami’s cheek, the distance between skin being very minimal at this point. “I believe I’ve done enough relaxation wit’ t'erapy. Someone ELSE is due for a massage    ” it was almost playful, the dialogue from Finn ; although they didn’t necessarily live together, everything felt so goddamn DOMESTICATED and…normal. What was ONCE his mistress was still a priority, but the affair with Sami was running parallel to the love he had for the squared circle. “    I have'ta enjoy what little I can do wit’ spare time before I join ‘da ranks again, hmm? I won’t get d’iskind'uv luxury once I get inside d’at ring again.

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     He smiles down at his words fondly, lines crinkling around his eyes. It was a very CONTENT and even rather intimate exchange between them. sweet and HEART WARMING as well as very … PURE. simple and pure. He thinks that he, too, would be quite content to stay like this all night but an ache in his feet and the vague sense of FATIGUE in the back of his mind tells him that he can’t.     “I’d hate to sound like a needy brat and all, but a massage sounds reeeaaallllyyy good right now.”    But he isn’t making any move of releasing the embrace. 

       “And y’know, when ya do get in the squared circle again, it’ll be easier for us ‘cause you’ll be there with me.”       Which was great because he was driven here out of WORRY nowadays. Worry for his sanity and safety        he didn’t want Finn to feel loveless and lonely because of his hectic schedule. But still, it was a CONFLICT for them. For, on one hand, Sami knew it was GOOD. Good that Finn was unwinding himself from any sort of attachment to him and was getting space  (  which was what he loved and needed sometimes  ). But at the same time — Sami felt that perhaps Finn’s distance was not traveling him down another path but rather it was driving him DEEP into a dark hole.  Sami then blinked a few times and held on to Finn just a little bit tighter  (  careful not to deprive him off his breathing  )  as an attempt to disappitate the negative thoughts that were plaguing his mind. He is here with him. They are together. They are safe.    “I love ya, Finn.”   He muttered, heavily lidded eyes now closing. He wasn’t drifting off to sleep, but the action pretty much conveyed that he wanted to.

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     Hiding his face in the curve of his partners neck, the Canadian started humming a soft tune and lifted his head to press a soft kiss on Finn’s scruffy cheek.  He knew Finn had been a busy man as well with all of the rehab and treatment of his shoulder and his visits to the gym, but Sami’s schedule has been way busier. He was tired and banged up from all the travelling  (  and ass kickings  )  so he needed to hold Finn to regain some sort of positive vibe

     “What a random comment. You’re not plannin’ on eating me, are ya?”        Sami murmured and smiled mockingly, a tender line playing around his lips as he then leaned his cheek against his lovers. It was good to be in his presence again       one of safety and contentment, which was exactly what Sami needed . His heart was beating so fast, so happy and he couldn’t possibly ask for more ( for something else ), for a better place to be.    “Heh. Sorry for the abscense and short visits, but I’m free now and here to stay so we can do… whatever, really!”      He beamed, lips shifting into a goofy grin as the hold around Finn’s waist grew a bit tighter.

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            a lot of memes. | accepting!     { for @ofdemoniics }

《  text msg     finn  》  Uh… thank you? 
《  text msg     finn  》 Is this supposed to be a compliment? 
《  text msg     finn  》 …or is this a weird way of saying you miss me? 
《  text msg     finn  》 Well, I miss you too, Finn, if that’s what you meant!

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Be mine?

meme // accepting.

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         Approaching him, Sami wrapped a hand around the back of his neck  &  pressed a kiss to his lips before pulling away with a smile,      “Of course I’ll be your valentine, Finn. You didn’t even have to ask!”

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           Braun was an entity that was in a WHOLE DIFFERENT category. Every time he saw that vile monster leave marks on something – no, SOMEONE – that Finn considered SACRED, it’s as though he grew territorial, a primal feeling birthed from within that wanted to be released. ARE YOU JUST GOING TO LET HIM BECOME ROADKILL? ARE YOU JUST GOING TO LET HIM BECOME ANOTHER VICTIM? SHAME ON YOU, FINN. No…he wouldn’t let that happen ; even DEMONS have something they want to protect, and Sami…well, no one got their grimy hands on him without retaliation.

          “Ehm –” and it’s as though that confidence from before just LEFT as quickly as it came. When it came to delivering, Finn had no problem carrying what he had hoisted up his sleeve for so long. But when it was his time to react, he SHRUNK and felt restricted of all movement - even breathing seemed like a difficult task. WHY, THOUGH? Why couldn’t he get over this phase in his life where everything made him so damn BASHFUL? There was a sea of red on his face, one he was trying to desperately shake off. Instead, he avoided eye contact with the Canadian and found the ground rather INTERESTING to look at, a half-assed attempt to rid himself of the blush that refused to exit stage left. “Ehm, I mean…I don’t exactly like'ta go ‘round ‘nd kiss people as a hobby, so I suppose you can fill ‘da blank line with a YES, hm?” it was hard for him NOT to stumble over his words, teeth nipping at his own bottom lip to suppress the smile that wanted to crawl out from within.

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      “C’mon, Finn, don’t pass out on me from embarrassment.”       Voice twinkling with a tone of teasing as he smiled down at him — he knew EXACTLY how to make the other get loose when the air was getting too tense and the question was the trick up his sleeve to do just that. Not everything had to be a stern situation and he wanted to teach Finn ; he always had a strict demeanor about him most of the time, which wasn’t compatible with Sami’s bubbly attitude.

     Then, he let a moment of silence sit calmly around them though part of him wished the silence would envelope them for the rest of the night.   Sami used his free hand to gently tip his chin up.  Taking a moment to look at him  —-  to really digest his features.  He was always so serious, so melancholy and when he was neither of those things he was a bashful, blushy mess.   SO PURE.   Almost always that shyness made him smile even Sami thought there was always something deeper  -—  something just beneath those embers of nerves that screamed a song of longing, saying how he wasn’t used to cheesy affection and needed to bask in MORE to get used to.  It was that almost childlike lament that was always just beneath the surface that drew Sami closer to Finn  —-  that made Sami wish to console him and hold him tight FOREVER.   “You’re adorable, you know that?”

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“ oh my god what happened? ”

sami is hurt… again. // accepting.

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     He had to have been dreaming  —-  still he knew somewhere in the muddied background of his thoughts that this was no dream.  Finn was here.  Sami wanted to say something  ;  to tell Finn to leave him  ( something wasn’t right )  but he couldn’t speak and soon found his consciousness slipping.

      By the time he could open his eyes they were somewhere else though he wasn’t exactly sure where but his vision was too foggy to focus.  Instead his hands were searching for a body part of his to touch to confirm the Irishman's presence.  There was a distant voice in the back of his head  SCREAMING  to warn Finn of something  —-  though now that he was waking he couldn’t quite remember exactly what it was.

     “F-finn?”      The words nearly sputter out of him as he grips his shirt.  He wondered how Finn found him.  He wondered if Finn was alright  —-  if he had been hurt on the way here.  But most of all he wanted to remember what had been so imperative to tell him as he looks at the man kneeling before him.      “He  —  he was here  —   he  — “      Unable to gather the right words, he just sighed,     “…fuck.  Just — l-let’s get out of here.”

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"You mean everything to me."

starter sentences. // accepting.

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        ONE SMALL MOMENT CAN CHANGE A LIFE ;;  Sami had heard people say it before, and he fully believed that statement.  From having someone he looked up to not believing in him to being mauled over by a monster       those small moments changed his life for the worse, but he remained positive. His sunshine was still bright and it never dimmed in the slightest. HOWEVER, FINN BROKE THE CURSE of only having small moments that would change his life for the worse above all else, above every bad circumstance life had thrown at him.  This one man with gentle pale blue eyes and a helping hand happened to be able to make his world brighter        enough to fight off the dark threatening to come through.  All that has been happening to him lately was WRATH by the empty, hard hands of people who wanted nothing more than to see him become another  CASUALTY  of the quiet war that raged within the squared circle.

        IS THIS WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO BE ON CLOUD NINE?  It was paradise to have the Irishman as his boyfriend. He made everything better. As hands cupped his face in his and pressed his lips to his, he realized FINN COULD BRING BACK THE GOOD IN HIS LIFE, and it made his chest swell with happiness ; heart beating a little faster and a giddy grin was on his face.      “And so do you, to I as well, Finn.“

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             BALORS DANCE. That’s what this was considered – the demon was the DARK PASSENGER and Finn was riding the driver’s seat in full velocity, right towards the highway of salvation. If not Sami, then WHO ELSE would step up to the plate? I mean, after all…he DID risk his career to prove a point to the management team of RAW going toe to toe with a KILLING MACHINE. Perhaps he WAS serious about this and not trying to poke around uncharted territory.

             Why did he have to have that level of CHARM that made him weak in the knees? No, quite literally – Finn used both hands and poised them on top of Sami’s shoulders, keeping his posture erect and with more confidence. The height difference between them was noticeable, acknowledging the ginger was a couple of inches taller, almost THANKFUL ; it made hiding the mantle of red in his face less apparent from his position. “…Maybe –” maybe there was a CHANCE for them to have something…but the question was how long would the joy last with the demon watching their every move? Only time could tell, but…it might be a risk worth taking if it meant standing next to Sami. “–I lost my way to ‘da light. ‘m afraid demons don’t get d’atsort’uv luxury like you angels do. It jus’ doesn’t work d’at way, but –” tone was quiet, a pin drop audible with this sort of silence, “–rules…are meant to be broken, aren’t they?

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        All traces of Sami’s initial suspicion were wiped clean off his features. His cheeks lifted in a broad grin ; Finn’s bashfulness was amusing, and he was got excited from the word “maybe” that fell from the Irishman’s lips. They weren’t perfect, and heartbreaks and pain were going to come, that’s for sure, but as long as they learn from their mistakes and pull through their dark days, they would come even closer and he would be out of the darkness in no time. Knowing that made Sami confident.

        It was hard to keep the   worry   from clenching its claws into his heart when they both were in a dangerous business  —-  but if there was anyone that Sami could trust to keep him happy it was Finn.  When the demon was sleeping, Finn shows off his colors as a great guy, and that’s why he fell for him, but it was still dangerous because the demon could awaken and bite him HARD. Sighing, he pushed himself the thought from his mind, trying to remain as positive as possible and wrapped a hand around the back of his neck, pressing a kiss to his forehead before pulling back to reply,      “Yeah, they are. I know this all seems kinda crazy and stupid, but I’m known for doing those type of things.”      He was referring to stepping up to Braun Strowman, of course, and he was losing the battle with the monster, and he wasn’t so sure how he would hold up against a demon      still, it didn’t hurt to try. Sami really wanted to be with Finn, and he was going to overcome any adversary to make it work.   “Soooo… uhh… it’s offical? We’re a thing?”